Party of 5

"No F*$%ing way" was the first thing out of my mouth. And then I ran down the stairs. Its funny because at the top of the stairs I was kinda smirking...but by the time I got to the last 2 I was in tears. I was sure in that moment I had ruined my life and my kid's lives and we were never going to be able to go out to eat again. LOL!! Because apparently going out to eat is just as important to me as raising happy, healthy kids ;) Anyways, I'll cut out all that went on those next 2 weeks, but I can sum it up with: Lots of Crying. And for so many reasons. Having kids 20months apart is a lot of work. So the idea of having 3 kids each 20 months apart scared the shit out of me. I'm a bit overwhelmed with life right now so this news probably threw me over the edge. Well not really, but it did lift me up and dangle me over the edge ;) I was really sad that I was changing the dynamic of my family. We're an even number, even sexes, the dynamic is perfect! Gentry and I can each manhandle a child, when necessary. The middle seat in our car is open for that 1 lone person that wants to ride with us. And I've always seen myself as a Mom of Two. So add all that to the fact that I'm not the most flexible person in the world, oh and I hate change, especially to my life plan, and multiply it by pregnancy hormones and you've got One CRAZY Lady!! During that time though some very special things happened. I've never really needed to lean on people like I did during that time. And honestly, I had no idea I was even leaning on them, but my girlfriends were absolutely amazing. I was constantly getting texts, or notes, or calls, or having conversations at the park. They were just "checking" on me. No one was telling me what I should do or giving me any advice, just simply letting me know they loved me and were there for me. It was really apparent how lucky I was to have such amazing woman in my life. I am one lucky girl and I have absolutely amazing girlfriends!! Its funny how people rally around you when you don't know they are and then you look back and realize it. Its a special thing! And I thank you all so much!

Ok. So of course my Doctor has the most jam packed schedule ever and it took 2 full weeks before she could see me. They were going to make me wait 4 but I told the girl that answers the phones, "I'm on the pill and theres NO WAY I should be pregnant. Please!" Lol. Yes, that's another awesome part of this story. I'm def on the pill and religious about it. Which also meant that all my girlfriends on the pill that don't want anything to do with babies are freaking the eff out. HAHAHA. Don't worry girls. Its like less that a 1% chance, and I feel like since you know someone that is officially that 1% you're in the clear ;)
The same day I went to see my Doc I also saw a Psychic! It was great :) My best friend's Mom mentioned that she saw one when her 1st baby was little and it was a great experience. Just to hear her say "Its all gonna be ok." Seeing the psychic was awesome. Except at the end when she told me she saw me having TWO MORE KIDS. And she thought she saw TWINS!!!! OMG. Yep, there I go again. Off the deep end. Bahahaha. And of course my doc had to tell me that my Hcg levels were high, which can mean twins. And did you know getting pregnant on the pill increases your chances of having twins? So I had to wait ANOTHER 4 weeks to confirm there was only 1. That was intense, to say the least.

So Thursday was my 11week appt. She's 90% sure there's only 1 baby. When we go in the next 2 weeks they'll be able to confirm 100% theres only one. Baby looks great. In the ultrasound pic baby's hand is up and totally looks like its waving. Or probably saying "What's up?!" I haven't been sick at all. Like maybe 15 seconds of nausea, but it was because I was hungry. The last 8 weeks I've been starving. And exhausted. At 10am I'm ready for a nap. This week I've felt pretty good. Probably the best so far. Still get pretty tired pretty fast, but not eating everything I see and sometimes actually feel energized. I'm guessing its another boy. I just can't believe I could be having another girl and no morning sickness. Doc said she'll be able to tell me the sex in 6 weeks! That's exciting :)

And yesterday I posted our announcement picture and got the sweetest feedback. More likes and comments than I imagined it would get. And I'm so pumped now!!!! For the first time I'm really excited. All the excitement of the people that made comments is pretty contagious, so I thank you all for the super sweet words! Especially those that said I looked cute ;) hehe. Cause the 1st trimester is the total "fat phase" and every time I get dressed I wish I could just put on a shirt that says "I'm not Fat, I'm pregnant."  I saw a newborn the other day and got so excited thinking about what this baby is going to look like!

So that's whats been going on the last few weeks! Its crazy how you can pee on a stick and your life changes just like that! I'm gonna be a Mom of 3. OMG!!! Oh yah, and I'm due 11.10.12! And as always, we ended up with a couple cute ones so I'm sharing my favs. The top one is the actual one I used to announce this baby on Facebook.

On that note....have a good weekend!!!